Iam gonna be just fine..

Have you ever did your loundry with your baby on?
Have you ever sweeping n mopping with one hand?
Have you ever cut tomato,carrot, chicken,fish etc etc while holding your baby?
Have you ever not taking any shower for the whole day due to your baby is too clingy to u?
Have you ever doin your business in the toilet while your baby watching you on her playpen?
I did all that already..

Mia had a trrible separation anxiety..she cannot be alone at all..not during her eyes open or her eyes shut..she will cry like mad wheneva i left her alone in the hall while me in the kitchen doin my stuff..

Mb some of you may ask why i cant do all those chores during mia's nap?
The answer is so easy..she can smell my present..
Once i woke up when shes already in her la la land..5 min later she will cried like mad..
My husband is not a big helper pun..and i really cannot complaint much on him..
coz he already too worn up after came back from office at 10pm.
Balik rumah..campak barang sana sini..sigh!mana lah tak bersepah..

With my messy house n too many chores to do in this house,,
sometimes i giv up to do it all by myself,.
i really in need for a maid..

Like yesterday,En.Laling clean underwear is out of stock..And it just make me a bad wife. I washed it already..but it still in the wahing machine..
On Sunday night pula,I planned to iron En.Laling uniform vest rite after i breastfeed Mia..
turn out i slept together with her..
Guess what it makes me when EL want to wear it on the next morning
sigh...

I hate living in this messy house..but with Mia's present is so not easy to clean it up..
I havent sweep or mop my house for two weeks already.
Same goes to the toilet and the kitchen cabinet..
Its really not easy being me..
But i still survived..
and it still OK..
No matter how tired i was..no matter how stress it is.


Because of this face...

Because of this smile..

Because of this eyes..

Because of this nose..

I know im gonna just be fine..its hard now..n i know too its not gonna be easier later..

but i still survive..and its all because of u darling Mia..

Me n Mia

Conversation between me and En.Laling during our jalan2 at Mid Valley last week.

Me: Yang, i nak masuk MNG n Dorothy Perkin jap..nak carik baju
En.Laling : Takyah la, kat rumah dah penuh baju u satu almari.
Me: yang kat rumah tu semua dah buruk..i asyik pakai tu je hari2 g kerja..student i pun agaknya dah leh hafal baju2 i
En.Laling : Takyah la..bulan depan je la beli..banyak sangat dah..membazir tu kan amalan syaitan..

*Dengan muka moncong sedepa..terus kami teruskan perjalanan.

Me: Yang, i nak masuk Mothercare jap..ada sale tu.
En.Laling : Takyah la..kan ke baju dia dah penuh satu almari bawah tu..baru 5 bulan..budak2 pakai kejap je baju2 ni
Me: Yang kat rumah tu banyak yang dah muat lagi kat Mia.u bukan tak tau anak u tu cepat membesar..seluar dah senteng..baju dah sendat..u sukalah kalau orang tgk anak u pakai baju selekeh..pergi jalan2 asyik pakai baju sama je
En.Laling: Yelah..g lah masuk..i tunggu kat luar jaga Mia..eh..yang..jap jap..guna credit card i ni..

*Hehehe..kalau dgn anak mesti si bapak kalah punya..hehehe..muncung sedepa tadi sudah bertukar ke sengihan kerang selepas keluar dari mothercare...heheheh

Ingat tak post dolu2..ada saya mention nak tukar product Mac..ye..saya sudah lakukanya..
Jalan2 kat Mid Valley..tetiba tgk ini brand ada sale 15%..tapi next post la saya cerita..kalau terror..cuba guess saya skang guna make up apa..hehehe..

Busybody betul

Kenapa saya suka bloghop from one blog to another?
Sebab saya busybody nak tahu life orang lain..

Blog ni kan consider macam diary juga la kan.Dulu saya sangat suka curik2 baca diary mak saya, abang saya,kakak saya dan adik saya..best betul curi baca kisah privacy orang ni..

Saya paling suka baca diary mak saya..tulisan dia cantek sangat sambung2..jenis handwriting orang dulu2..mak saya tulis diary cakap omputeh..mostly dalam diary dia..dia suka tulis apa dia buat haritu..apa dia rasa..sedih ke..marah ke..ada once dia tulis yang buat saya rasa sangat sedih..kisah dia menyesal sangat sbb pukul abang saya guna rotan ..

Saya baca diary abang saya berdating kat Ulu bendul dgn awek dia..hahah..lawak betul..diary abang saya ni lagi byk lukisan cartoon dari cerita..dia suka sangat lukis gambar atok n ujang dalam komik gila-gila dulu

Diary adik saya pula byk sangat kisah sedih..Dia ni kira intan terpilih la dalam family saya ni..ada gelap sket..heheh..dia pernah tulis.."mungkin kah mak aku tertukar aku masa baby dulu?ataupun mak pungut aku kat mana2"..hahahah..sedih kan..pastu pernah dia tulis kisah ugly betty n dia..adik saya tu mmg macam tu..dari dulu sifat rendah diri dia menebal dlm diri dia.If dia baca blog saya ni..saya nak tahu dia ada mata yang sangat cantek..seriyes tak tipu..if ada masa nanti saya tepek gambar adik saya ni yer..mata dia macam mata kucing tau..

punyalah saya ni busybody orangnya kan..menyebok hal ehwal orang..tapi skang ni..dari tulis diary orang prefer tulis blog..dulu diary ni privacy gila babi..kalau boleh takmo orang baca..tapi skang lagi ramai orang view..lagi banyak masyuk nuffnang nya kan..heheh..so sama tak kiranya kenapa kita suka baca diary orang dulu..dgn kenapa kita suka bloghop orang punya blog..

Kadang2 rasa mcm addicted pula tau saya skang ni..mesti nak tau kisah kawan2 blogger saya harini..heheh..kira saya ni busybody..penyebok hal ehwal orang la..

Post kesyukuran

Last week lunch saya g bf kan Mia kat nursery..tgk2 ada sorang baby baru..so skang dah ada 5 babies in that room..alahai...

Baby baru tu comel sangat..putih..bam bam sangat walaupun baru 3 month..tapiii...dia sumbing sikit..bukan sumbing yang sampai terkoyak lips..just sikit je..maybe baru operation..

Tetiba rasa sayu betul tgk baby tu..tatau la apsal..saya kiss baby tu..alahai dah pandai senyum..
walaupun sumbing,dia tetap chomel..dia pandang je saya masa saya susukan Mia..mb dia miss mommy dia..mb dia pun still bf mommy dia lagi..sedih lagi..tahan air mata je saya masa tu

Lepas Mia dah zzzzzz..saya mintak izin bebudak nursery tu untuk angkat baby baru tu..ntahlah perasaan hiba menyengat kalbu bila tengok dia..saya peluk baby tu..mesti mak baby ni kat office teringat2 kat anak dia kat nursery kan..baby tu pula dok sondol2 breast saya..dalam hati.."sorry sayang, auntie tak boleh bagi susu..nanti mak sayang marah pula"..air mata dah bergenanag

Semalam masa saya amik Mia balik kerja..terserempak dengan ayah baby baru ..to my surprise ayah dia pun sumbing juga..sumbing ni warisan ke?tak kan...

Post ini bukan tujuan untuk menghina mereka2 yang sumbing ye..saya tak pernah rasa begitu..sekarang ni kan byk treatment utk itu..tapi post ini sekadar berkongsi rasa kesyukuran sebab saya telah dikurniakan dengan baby yang sempurna..sihat tubuh badan..alhamdulilah..

Saya bersyukur dengan kehadiran Mia..walaupun dia tak putih melepak..walaupun mata dia hitam tak biru macam anak omputeh..walaupun hidung dia tak mancung bak seludang..walaupun mata dia sepet..walaupun dia tak bulat mcm baby putra..hehehe...walaupun rambut Mia hitam berkilat tak blonde...saya tetap bersyukur..she still my most beautiful baby in the whole wide world..saya tak mintak apa2 lagi dah.."Just saya sentiasa doa semoga disihatkan tubuh badan Mia..membesar jadi anak yang baik dan berguna kepada agama bangsa dan negara"..chewah..

Buang Lagi

Stock bulan september pula kena dispose kali ni..total ada 30 pack of 6 oz..huhuhu...
walaupun membazir itu amalan syaitoon..tapi pembaziran ini untuk kebaikan anak saya..fresh kan lagi baik dari yang frozen..maka buang tetap buang...

"Mommy nak buang ke susu banyak2 ni mommy?"

"Takyah buang la mommy..kita buat mandi susu je nak..musti kulit Mia putih melepak lepas berendam dlm susu mommy neh"

My cheeky Lil Mia

Untuk tatapan mommies yang missy missy sama ini monster..sudah lasak kemain..

Mata Mia sama cam mata mommy kan..yang lain daddy kut..

Muka sangat notti kan time dia senyum ketap mulut cenggini..my fav pose so far..

And this one too..mommy love u so much darling..

Malas nak type panjang2..penat sbb baru balik dari kenduri neh..sok saya cerita lagi ok..

Nitey nite everyone..enjoy the piccas

zzzzzzz..

Tipuuuu...

Tipuuu...saper2 yang cakap Pap Smear tak sakit..huhuhu...
Sakit gila i tell u...

I went to Hospital Pakar An Nur yesterday for Pap Smear check up.
and yes to seek option for my famili planning method with my gynae..

The painful after the test is still bearable but it tooks a lotsa courage not to drop a tears in front of the nurses and the doc..

I think the painful that cause mb came from the lotion they used during the process..pedih pedih gila sampai malam..even nak pee pun kuar air mata tau...huhuh

But again i have did my Pap Smear test already..the result will be next week..did u do yours yet?
The cervical cancer is women 2nd coz of death now tau.so better go n check ok..i wont lied..it gonna hurt a lot..and the memories about being seluk2 will came back during the procedure..

Ok now about option of family planning..i had asked around my friend and some of the bloggers mommies..quite numbers of peep do the natural family planning..but i wont dare to stay natural..like i told u i need another rm1k to add the no of baby in the family...not now..no no...

My gynae told me yesterday for fully breastfeeding mom there are 3 options now..
One is IUCD...which sumtin she will not recommend for first baby..cost about rm300+ for 3 years of period..dah tanya orang about IUCD ni dah..some said ok but there are plenty of side effect such as migrain, during the love making session sometime u feel like it wanna come out from yours, and even worst some may had terrible type of periods.huhu..

Second option is Noriday pills..the lowest hormones type of pills.so it wont effect ur milk..But the effectivity is about 95% oni..some of my gynae patient dah termengandung dah..huhu..takut2

Third and the best option is to implant one stick on your shoulder..its like susuk u now..hehehe..cost about rm500+..for 5years..you can remove it anytime u want by a simple operation procedure..i plan to take this one..but i have to find others experinced using this method also..ada yang cuba tak ni?ok tak?

But fr now i just take Noriday for my family planning..takutnya badan naik n gemuk..sudahlah saya ni tinggi..kalau gemuk mmg nampak macam giant yang menakutkan je kan..so try for 1 month..if my nafsu makan semakin membuas.saya akan stop pill ini and try susuk itu pula..ekeke

Happy Friday people..